Below are the 18 most recent journal entries recorded in raverchic125's LiveJournal:

Sunday, February 19th, 2006
11:53 pm	Feb 10-19 welll again i am slipping on this.. i simply dont have time anymore.. between school and work *ugh* lol.. anyway so heads up for everyone... i will only be posting major events from now on bc all i do is go to school and work.. lol but this past week was valentines day and that was hell.. totally lonely.. karen and kelly came up around 10 and brought me all my stuff from garrett, chocolate, modern bride, lotion, perfume, bodywash.. he has me soo spoiled lol.. i love him soo much!!!! last night, feb 18, was the CCV winter party and that sucked.. horrible music and my freidn shaun gettin treated like shit by his date so.. that was hell and i was soo excited about it too.. ehh oh well life sucks lately :-( nothing is the same w.o him thats about it lately I Love You Garrett!!! (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 9th, 2006
10:43 pm	feb 2-9 well this past week has been pretty typical... work and class... the 8th was pretty rough for me tho, it had been 1 month since he left but that month went pretty quick so im hoping the next 4 do too... today i went out for dinner with Leah and her friend, that was okay and then on my way home i met up wit Karen and Kelly we bullshitted for about an hour havent seen karen since garrett left until this morning at Dunkin Doughnuts... umm yesterday i got my tint on my car :-) other than that its same old same old... i do have a new bsession with 2 songs tho.. 4ever by the veronicas and boys of summer by the Ataries (however u spell it, its a remake of an eagles song anyway lol) but Jen is commin over soon so im gunna head out... idk when ill write again lol... my life is simply too fuckin boring lol!!! I Love You Garrett!!! 4 months and 1 day!!! :-) Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 2nd, 2006
6:01 pm	January 29, 30, 31, Feb 1 & 2 hahah wow.. its been like a week since i posted last.. for those of you actually following my soap opera life, sorry i have been neglecting you.. :-\ January 29 worked 3-11 January 30, school then worked 3-11 January 31, school then worked 3-11, got in a hige fight with Garrett about my car bc of where i am getting all the work done on it... im not goin to his friend who dont know me without him... not happening.. so we got in a HUGE fight about that... grrrr and to top it all off while i was sitting at work the old folks has a performance and of course who walks in but a fucking marine.. & SURPRISE!!!! i cried lol February 1st.. class then went to the mall wit jen and billy, got my dress for the winter party for work and got my 5th set peirced in my ears.. then we went to rockaway mall (my 1st time) pretty cool and Jen found a dress.. & i fit into a 13-14 jeans :-) i was soo happy havent done that since early senior year... then i went to Weight watchers and found out i lost another 3.4 lbs ... im down to 190 and still losing more :-) then at night i came home and just cried.. i watched one tree hill and it was so romantic and sad that it made me realy miss garrett especially since all the couples were back together and idk it was just really hard... like i tought it would be getting easier but about once a week i just break down and idk why... OMG he asked me to move in with him when he gets out of the Corps!!! :-) OMG that DID make me smile :-D February 2... class, nails, class, called Cybelle to schedual the appt for my hair, took my sister to voice lessons and now i am gettin ready to go pick her up :-) so thats been the exciting life of mandii lately lol.. garrett still hasnt gotten any of his boxes yet.. GRRR!!!! so idk wtf is goin on there... im sure there is more but i just dont flippin remeber lol I LOVE YOU GARRETT MICHAEL! Current Mood: lonely (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 28th, 2006
9:30 pm	January 26, 27, 28 1/26~ well i slept right thru my Criminal Justic class bc i thought it started at 12.. noo it wad over at 12 so i was fucked there.... then i went to my critical thinking class which was boring as hell... then i sat home for awhile went to Friendly's for dinner then came home and made Garrett's valentines day gift... then bed, then hung out at Bartholdi until 2am then back to George and Joann's place til 4am 1/27~ was up at 8am taking the twins to school then i had a 9am class... then i went out with Jen, she got her 3rd holes peirced :-) then i went to work, went home and drove around wit jen for a bit... then bed 1/28~ i slept until 230 today work at 3. then did long forms for the month and daily sheets for next week... then i am goign to pick up Garrett's mom's pampered chef stuff then up to Bartholdi again lol... who knows next time i will post.. i am soo busy with school now... :-\ but hopefully it makes the time go fatser :-) im missing him more each day *134 to go* I LOVE YOU GARRETT MICHAEL! Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 26th, 2006
1:37 am	January 23, 24, 25 Sorry ive been slipping had many problems lately... We'll start with monday... class in the morning then i got to work and got ripped a new asshole from my boss bc i had the worng person come into cover my shift from 10a-3p.. Margarete said Barbara's not trained in Belmont.. well hello shes fucking worked there before but whatever fuck her.. i win bc my mom heard her say it didnt matter who worked as long as they werent on overtime so fuck it... i cme home that night and my internet didnt work and i was too aggervated to figure it out... nor did my phone charger work.. it said it was the worng charger so w.e fuck that too... so i went to sleep after watching Garrett's PI graduation (i cried when i saw him.. SURPRISE!!!!) so Tuesday, after 2 classes i did alot at work (i got Garrett's V-day present mostly done so ill ship that out soon and i met some kid nick who knows Garrett but he was kinda weird so... then Jen & I went to Bartholdi Fire Co. to see Billy (Jen's bf) we finally left around 1... i guess Billy got reaaly drunk and ended up passing out and Jen was reallyw orried so i went and picked her up at 3am. Then today i went to class this morning got there a half hour early so i brought Linda (Garrett's mom) her pamered chef catelog so she could place her order then i flew back to school... went to my class then hit BK, went and saw my friend Krystle (she's 8 mo preg and she is sooo cute check her out www.myspace.com/krysii)from there i chilled wit Aleks for a bit, we went to Taco Bell/KFC in Oakland then back to her place to watch Sex & the City (love that show.. la casa de lesbo lol) then i went to Weight Watchers :-( i gained 3.2 lbs GRRRR!!! so then Jen came to get me and we FLEW home to watch One Tree Hill... i cant wait for next weeks!!!! then we went to the fire house again to see Billy then i came home burned a CD for my sister and now i am gunna do some homework and pass the fuck out.. Today (1.25) was pretty hard on me.. it was his birthday (23) today and ya know hes not here to celebrate and i just wanted to be with him today... but soon enough.. 1 more bday away from me then hes mine til he dies lol... anyway its bedtime... I LOVE YOU GARRETT MICHAEL!!!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood: stressed (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 22nd, 2006
10:28 pm	January 22 well today i was up at 630am for work from 7a-10a then i came home and we did mommys Pampered Chef party.. that lasted til about 3 then i tried to take a nap but the rents insisted we clean out the garage and dads workshop so we did then it wa sout to dinner where the fun began. AnaMaria (nena), lil girl across the street, had the flu last night but she felt better today, so her family and my family went out for dinner @ Pizza Hut. well all was okay til she felt sick... then her brother Emilio had a horendous ear ache, screaming from the pain, next thing we know Nena comes out and tells us Stef (my lil sister) is puking... so finally with all the sickly children we headed home... stefi is till trowing up, emilio is still screaming in pain, my stomach still hurts so overall this wasnt the best day... lol... but i am going to bed, i have english at 1030 in the mornign and i still have to shower so... :-) G'night all.. I Love You Garrett Michael!!! *140 days* (i think, lol) BTW~ the road to quitting is going good now... the nose ring is scaring me from smoking... what if the tar builds up in the peircing??? i know its dumb but hey.. its making me quit... so ever since i got it last night i havent had one cig.... :-) I WILL DO THIS... its soo hard tho.. oh well.. goodnight!!! Current Mood: sore (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 21st, 2006
11:09 pm	January 21 1149pm... FIRST PHONE CALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was watching Law and Order and my phone rang and it said Line 1 so i'm like who the hell is this... IT WAS GARRETT!!!!!!!!!!!!! we talked 17 mins but he was on his friends phone so... i felt soo bad, at first i didnt know it was him because he has a cold and does NOT sound like himself... but omg i am sooo happy.... today started like shit and just got better all day.. i worked 7am-3pm came home met up wit Leah and Irene went down to Tattoo Zone and got my nose peirced, went to ruby Tuesdays for dinner drove around and came home to an empty house. the girls went home and finally grama came home. shortly after that, mom and dad came home... mom wasnt too upset abt my nose ring shes just worried about work.,.. oh welll FUCK IT!!!!! i told her wen i left CCV i was gettin it so i did... so i came home was watchin Law and Order and he called now i am down here with my LJ and gettin ready to go to bed bc i have work 7a-10a tomorrow but then we have mommy's pampered chef party.. FUN FUN!!! NOT! and then we are cleaning out the garage.. more fun DOUBLE NOT!!! but i am goign to bed on that wonderful note... I LOVE YOU GARRETT MICHAEL!!!!!!!!! 140 days til i can hold you again!!!! *muah* Current Mood: ecstatic (Comment on this)
Friday, January 20th, 2006
11:11 pm	January 20 well... i got up around 8 and took my sister to school... then it was off to class for me.. i got there and there were like mayyybe 10 cars there so im like okayyy??? so i go into the class and sit in the back like usual and who walks in but my ex boyfriend Bryan... were still good friends he came and sat next to me and we started talking then i came home played on mommys laptop for a bit then i went out to lunch with Leah.. came home, changed and went to work where the fuckin internet was down :-( so i watched red eye... pretty good movie and as i started King Kong the net came back up... so i played around on there for while and got my tattoo put together for Van tomorrow so he can draw it up... now its off to bed because i have work at 7am... *ugh* good night everyone... I Love You Garrett!!! 142 days left til you are home with me.. :-) BTW~ this whole quitting this IS NOT easy... i cheated again today and had like 5 but i swear sunday i am DONE... i have to quit!!! (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 19th, 2006
10:29 pm	January 19 Well my day started early as hell todaywith my sisters fighting over a sweatshirt. then i talked to my love for a little bit then running around began... it started at staples then to BJ's (to find Garrett's favoirte popcorn) well they didnt have it but i did get a box to ship everything in :-) so then i went to CCV to get mommys costco cardso i went there to find the popcorn they didnt have it either, while i was out there i paid moms JCPenny's bill... then on my way home the road i take was flooded out so i had to go a differant way. then i went to Radical Tunes and the guy is working on an appt for me to get my interior neons and tint :-) then i hit A & p, and stop and shop (no popcorn) so finally i went to shoprite and found it.. :) then i came home got grama and went to the UPS store to get the box filled with peanuts and taped up then it was off to the post office to ship it :-) now its about 1230 so me and grama went to lunch and then we came home and i passed out til about 6ish got up took a shower went to dinner wit Jen and Billy came home watches CSI and now i am doidng this. Classes start tomorrow, should be fun (NOT!!!) but hopefully now that i am back in school the days will go fater until my baby comes home to me.. i miss him ALOT!!! more and more each day.. his homecoming in June is gonna be the best yet!!! but i think i am goin to try and get some sleep for tomorrow... yippee!! lol I Love You Garrett!!!! BTW, the road to quitting aint easy.. i did really good today though.. i only had 4 smokes and 3 out of 4 were at the diner... thats a baaad place for me.. hopefully tomorrow is better... :-\ *143 days* (Comment on this)
1:01 am	January 16th, 17th and 18th i know i know i have been slacking but with school starting friday i just have a lot going on. Monday, i helped paint my kitchen, it was white now blue then went to Montvale to pick up blinds that mommy ended up not likeing so she threw them in the middle of the chucky cheese parking lot.. wat a freakin tard.. but that aight.. then i went to work came home and passed out!!!!!! then Tuesday i got up around 2 or so and piddles around bc i had orientation and my mom was gunna work for me, well my shift starts at 3 and mom ouldnt get there til 5 so my boss was like well mandz you have to come in im like umm yeah no.. so i didnt.. i went to orientation there was a whopping 12 people there (thank god jess went wit me i didnt know anyone there) that was kinda gay then i went to work and watched 40 yr old virgin got about halfway thru then it was time to go home. i swore i was gunna come home and finish it well yeah that didnt happen i put it in and went to sleep lol... so today i wake up around 11 bc i had a corporate meeting to go to at work and it was soo shitty out.. raining cold the whole 9 and it just made me feeel that much worse... im missing him really bad esp now that i know he is down because were not gonna have a baby yet and i just want to hold him and tell him it will all be okay because i know it will be.. if its ment to be it will be, i mean we both have so much goign for us right now and i dont think we are ready for a baby yet, soon enough the time will come... do i want one now, absolutely BUT, im not ready and i know im not!!! but w.e, so then after adding the shit weather on top of me being lonely already this day was pretty much shot!!! so i came home played on comp for a while then went to weight watchers.. lost another 1.8 lbs for a grand total of 16.4 lbs total!!!!!!!!!!!!! whoo hoo, then i went shopping for Garrett's bday and i have NO CLUE how i am going to get it all to Japan in 6 days.. god i am such a wreck with it all right now ijdk wtf to do anymore.. so anyway weight watchers, dinner, then home to watch one tree hill (reminded me of Gar some more b.c the connection Brooke and Lucas share is the same one we do and it just hurts to not have hime here)... also too i signed Karen (my sister in law) up wit a website so we can really get a move going on his room... we hope to have it done byt the time he comes home and i know us.. we will lol... but im gunna prolly pass out now bc i kno i have shit to do tomorrow... like the post office at 8AM lol.. (like that will really happen) but anyway goodnight all.. I Love You Garrett!!! BTW, today i smoked my last cig. hopefully this will last, im gunna try and go cold turkey idk how long it will last... bc the way i see it i have at least 14 more lbs to lose by june... and if i quit i can run faster and therefore burn more fat.. so we shall see how this goes... goodnight.. I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY!!!!!!! Current Mood: stressed (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 15th, 2006
10:16 pm	January 15 today was very typical. i got home around 8am from my overnight shift passed out right away, mom cam ein at 1 to wake me up i said hell no i have another hour, got up at 2 came to work..watched a video that i now have on myspace (www.myspace.com/givemethetruth) & got a lil depressed bc i am missing him something terrible right now and now i am gettin ready to go home... i am writing this so early bc i am still at work and as soonas i go home i am going straight to bed after my fun filled weekend of work work and more fucking work... lol Goodnight all!! I Love You Garrett!!! *we may be a thousand miles apart, but ill be with you wherever you are* ~lonestar Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
12:08 am	January 14 Well i slept til 130, got up, felt naushous, went to work. It snowed like hell so i am working a double tonight ive been here since 3pm and i will be here til 7am. let me tell you guys, its exciting (NOT) lol... snow is okay but it makes me miss him alot because i know how he loves the snow :-( and Oki doesnt exactly get snow lol... but thats really it for today. it was a week agao that we were together last :-( but i cant think about that, i have to think that it is 1 week of deployment down and only 19 to go :-) before i know it i will be done with this semester and he will be home :-) but i have a smoke alarm going off so im out :) I LOVE YOU GARRETT MICHAEL!!!! Current Mood: blank (Comment on this)
Friday, January 13th, 2006
11:35 pm	January 13 today was very exciting let me tell you guys lol... i got up around 130-2ish and went to work. trained some new lady (hopeless cause) talked to my man quite a bit today. thats really it. OH, i have to let you know how last night wit the webcam went. well he showed me around his room (its like a dorm room) and then i saw him i was doin okay yesterday crying wise then i saw him and lost it. i wanted so bad to just reach thru and touch him, hug him and kiss him, but i know i cant and it SUCKS!!!! im on cam with him right now as a matter of fact and its great to see him but it sucks too bc it makes me want him here that much more. actually i have a small problem, he just told me that one of my friends hooked up with his friends man. i like Jen (his friend) shes pretty cool but she probably mad at me now bc Krystin is a whore lol... love ya hunnie!!! i just wanna know what the hell happened, last thing i knew they were just talking but idk i havent talked to Jen or Krys yet. but anyway i am goign to go back and talk to my man. these posts are getting shorter each day i promise one day i will write a long one again.. lol... Love Ya Garrett! (Comment on this)
2:08 am	January 12 i was up til 5am this mornign so i didnt get up til like 2 then i talked to Karen for a bit... was suppose to go to Walmart wit her but we never made it. i got my books for class today and since it was such a beautiful day!!! i cleaned out my car (impressive i know) dropped my charger off wit Jess and then went wit her to vaccuum the inside of my car.. thenit was off to weight watchers.. (dramatic music) I LOST 6 LBS :-) it was a great feeling... then me and mom went to the mall and got Garrett's bday shit and my new TV :-) then i chilled wit Jen and bill for a while.. went to PQ and driving around town bc i was bored.. not a very exciting day but why would it be.. my heart is in Japan :-( 148 days til i am me again.. GOD i miss him!!! i would give anything to just hold him right now... it hasnt even been a week and its starting to get hard... i miss everything, how he held me when we slept how he kissed me how tight he would pull me toward him.. THE AMAZING SEX the connection we had when we looked in each ohters eyes, the softness of his skin, him being soo ticklish i miss it all, but he is comming on his webcam so i am goign to go cry bc i havent seen him sicne he got on the plane... I Love You Garrett MIchael! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 11th, 2006
11:44 pm	January 11 well today was long. i was woken up at 930 to Karen calling. then as much as i tried to fall back asleep i couldnt because of soo much drama runnign thru my head... i love how shit starts when he is gone. thank GOD for Karen and Krystin if it wasnt for them i cant even explain. but i called CCM got in a fight wit them bc of my grades. i ordered my books for next semester. i went to st. marys to get shit for my sisters then lunch wit Gram and saw Shannon (whoo hoo, i missed that chica) then home watched passions then chilled wit Karen for a couple hours we decided not to go to Walmart today bc it was so shitty out but we are going tomorrow. then i got my nails done and went to Fridays for dinner wit mommy :) all she does anymore is talk about her soon to be son in law. such a change from a few moths ago :) thank GOD! then Jen and my sister called me and told me my man was looking for me so here i am... lol... i started lookin thru wedding dresses today. i cant wait until hes home and we can do some real browsing (ill do the dress alone tho) but just lil shit that has to be taken care of but i need him here for it. but its 150 days left and each day is a little easier bc i talk to him on the comp. i just wish the drama would stop... Love You GarBear!!!! (Comment on this)
12:06 am	January 10 today was okay. i woke up around 130 and found my phone on the kicthen table. i went down to Nextel and had my service hooked up. then went to work. i was in a bad mood til like 8 and i dont know why but then i read in one of my myspace support groups that i have to look at the time as not that he is gone fom me but that it is that long until he is back with me. then i talked to my Krystin for a lil bit then i talked to Garrett on AIM and it just made my night that much better. i played with my phone and wished my cousin, Bek, happy bday. then i came home *dramatic music* my grades came.. I got a B in honors english a c in Social Work and Psych and i failed Soc. but they fucked up bc i withdrew from Alg and they put that i withdrew from Soc and failed Alg so i have to call and deal with them tomorrow. but overall today was pretty vanilla and i am still makeing progress day by day. i still miss him like crazy but i only have 5 months then he is back stateside :-) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 10th, 2006
12:16 am	January 9 today was a little better. i passed out around 2am after more crying bc it was my first night without him, i woke up around 930 to his mom calling me and letting me know he made it there okay. i was suposed to be up by 10-1030ish to go with Jen to get my new phone but that didnt happen so around 130 i rolled out of bed and went down to Nextel to get my new phone (i860 camera :), i get it in the mail tomorrow) anyway i went there then i stopped at the bank for my mom then wendys then work. not a very exciting day. when i got to work i had a few residents ask me how i was doing which caused more tears to roll then when i went out for break i stood there and stared at the sky and thought "if you look at the moon, i will meet you there bc i will loook too" then i thought well when the mooon is up here its dayime there so we dont even have that. but he did emial me and he told me the time will go fast and that he loves me so i hope he is right. it is really hard being without him when he has been everything to me for so long. but my friend krystin made a point, 5 months is nothing when you think about the eternity we will have once we are married :) so that brightnened my day a little it also helped when she said she would come up from south jersey and go to my winter party for work with me. she has been a big help thus far. i added a few more pix and icons to my myspace page (www.myspace.com/givemethetruth) and then i went out for dinner with Leah when i got out of work. it was pretty fun lighting shit on fire there lol... the dumb bitch (waitress) took 30 mins to wait on us so we decided to be pyros lol... but i am home now making my nightly entry and hopefully sleep will be easier tonight. i doubt it thought becuase nothing will ever compare to sleeping in his arms. it gives me this feeling of security and that nothing can go wrong whn i am in his arms. i just hope he feels better because i guess when he got to Osaka he threw up, i dunno why but his mom said he did. i hope he feels better; i hope i feel better soon too becuase i am still sick. im getting better slowly but my head still feels like it is in a vice. but that is all for now because i am going to send Leah some songs that i burned for Garrett and then i am going to bed. but i think with in a week or so i will be okay with the seperation. i will never be 100% okay with it because half my heart is half a world away and i just dont feel whole with out him here. Current Mood: lonely (Comment on this)
Monday, January 9th, 2006
12:39 am	January 8 Well today begins my fiance's 5 month deployment back to Okinawa. It has been a really hard day for me. When he was home we were toghether every waking moment except when i was working. He has been over there for a little over a year already so you would think i would be okay with him going back, absolutely not! I went to the airport with him and his mom at 6am and i was okay so far but when they called zone 4 to load (his seat) the tears started (again, i had been crying the whole night and most of the evenigng before) and i watched him go down the ramp into the plane. His mom told me "he wont look back" i asked why she told me if he does he will see us crying and he will start so i was watching him walk away from me and then some guy got between me and him and he was gone. It was then that i dropped to the floor. after i got calmed down a little bit, his moms cell phone rang, and it was him. the tears started again, he said "thanks punk ass, you got me crying" and that just made everything worse. im sure i looked like an idiot crying as bad as i was but hey, im in love. We then watched them load the luggage and back the plane out we saw it back out and taxi down the runway then it was out of sight. While we were walking away i glanced out the window and thought i saw the plane but i couldnt be sure. then she brought me home where i cried my slef to sleep with my friend Jen who was here waiting for me. my phone woke me up around 130 when Garrett called to tell me he had landed in San Fran and to ask me if i knew where his cell phone for Japan was, come to find out it had fallen out of his pocket on the way to the airport, it was in moms car. so she has to ship that over. so he had me email his friend rebecca and tell her all the flight info bc he wont have his cell when he gets there. so i did that from work as i cried more and more. Jen & billy came up a couple times to make sure i was okay and to bring me dinner which was sweet of them but on the way home from work was when it hit me i stopped at 7-11 for dog food and i almost passed my street b.c i thought i was going back to his house like i have been everynight. I am now sick from cring so much. stuffed nose, sore throte, chapped lips, pounding head, and puffy eyes. hopefully things get better becuase i dont know how i can take 5 months like this. I will be writing everyday becuase this is for my fiance to read from there and almost make him feel like he is home. some days will be longer than others. but i am going to try and get some sleep since i got none last night. Garrett, i miss you baby and its only 152 days until you are stateside!!! I Love You!!! (Comment on this)